What I didn't know....

If you know me, you know that I'm divorced. A situation that I did not want to find myself in, but here I am and I survived it nonetheless. It's been almost 3 years soon and there are discoveries that I did not know I would make.

I did not know that Loneliness would be the only one kissing me at night
I did not know that my heart could love someone again
I did not know that sleeping alone could be comforting
I did not know that friends and other activities could temporarily fill the void
I did not know that the wound gets salted each time I see other 4 member families
I did not know that this would become "normal" for my daughters
I did not know that saying I was single felt better than saying I'm divorced
I did not know that my "free" weekends would become something I looked forward to
I did not know that those family stickers on the back of cars would cause nostalgia
I did not know that I actually did build visions of forever and ever in my head
I did not know that I would ache for companionship
I did not know that I redefining me would be challenging and fun
I did not know that I could light up my own fireplace,...not my own fire... :)
I did not know that Ikea furniture was so easy to put together
I did not know that I would look forward to my bike rides on my own
I did not know that men get hurt too
I did not know that one day...out of the blue, the pain fades..
I did not know that peonies give me everlasting hope that love exists..
I did not know that keeping a "brave" list...would make me braver...
I did not know that I would fall deeper in love with my daughters because they rescue me..
I did not know that I would wear "grace" well...

That whole things get better with time part.. its true... you get better, you find yourself, you lose yourself....then you find yourself again... Life is a Journey...